7/31/2008
7/29/2008
Oh No She Didn't!
7/28/2008
One of the lucky ones

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I wasn't really prepared for such excitement in one day, but little did I know we'd be participating in another c-section just minutes after my first experience! This time was even more exciting than the first....i know! Hard to imagine. These little kiddos were 27 weekers (2+ months early!!) ....and did i say kiddo "s" yes....TWINSIES!! I dubbed them my little "hannah montana" twins. They were incredible. First of all they were being delivered really early because they were a "twin-twin transfusion" which is very rare. To summarize the twins have two umbilical cords but they share blood supply, sort of like one big open circuit.


These aren't my "hannah montana" twins but their rolls and cuteness were too much to not put them on here :)
WHAT A DAY!!! :D
Makes me smile just thinkin' about it. I know i said i'd NEVER be an ob/gyn but you never know.....
"do not disturb" : open to interpretation?
i always keep my door chained and bolted or whatever the option may be so that housekeeping doesn't come barging in on me during my moments of solitude.
to enforce my wish for privacy, i ALWAYS hang the "do not disturb" sign on my door handle.
in fact, i almost always leave it on the door handle when the room is vacant, simply because i do not want my possessions rearranged or exposed to theft or damage by strangers, etc.
"do not disturb"
seems to me to be a pretty straightforward phrase.
why is it then that the front desk or housekeeping always calls me on the telephone (probably at the point they want to go home) to ask if i want housekeeping service?
i can't help but classify a telephone call from the very people i posted the virtual "KEEP OUT" sign for as a "disturbance."
i'm pretty sure they know what the sign means and who the message is addressed to. they did in fact spend the money to have the sign printed and left a copy of it in my room for my convenient use.
so where's the confusion happening?
what i'm trying to say is: leave me the fuck alone.
theenks!
jay
7/26/2008
Need some help!

7/25/2008
7/24/2008
oh my god
Your fingers reach around the bone
You set the break and set the tone
Flights of grace, and future falls
In present pain
All fools say, "Oh my God"
Oh my God, Why are we so afraid?
We make it worse when we don't bleed
There is no cure for our disease
Turn a phrase, and rise again
Or fake your death and only tell your closest friend
Oh my God.
Oh my God, can I complain?
You take away my firm belief and graft my soul upon your grief
Weddings, boats and alibis
All drift away, and a mother cries
Liars and fools; sons and failures
Thieves will always say
Lost and found; ailing wanderers
Healers always say
Whores and angels; men with problems
Leavers always say
Broken hearted; separated
Orphans always say
War creators; racial haters
Preachers always say
Distant fathers; fallen warriors
Givers always say
Pilgrim saints; lonely widows
Users always say
Fearful mothers; watchful doubters
Saviors always say
Sometimes I cannot forgive
And these days, mercy cuts so deep
If the world was how it should be, maybe I could get some sleep
While I lay, I dream we're better,
Scales were gone and faces light
When we wake, we hate our brother
We still move to hurt each other
Sometimes I can close my eyes,
And all the fear that keeps me silent falls below my heavy breathing,
What makes me so badly bent?
We all have a chance to murder
We all feel the need for wonder
We still want to be reminded that the pain is worth the thunder
Sometimes when I lose my grip, I wonder what to make of heaven
All the times I thought to reach up
All the times I had to give
Babies underneath their beds
Hospitals that cannot treat all the wounds that money causes,
All the comforts of cathedrals
All the cries of thirsty children - this is our inheritance
All the rage of watching mothers - this is our greatest offense
Oh my God
Oh my God
Oh my God
7/22/2008
I ♥ nurses!

No seriously i do. My mommy is a nurse, and a fabulous, incredibly intelligent one at that. Nurses are by far some of the hardest working people in a hospital. They spend more time with patients than physicians do, and they log a lot more hours with patient families as well. They have that nurse/mom/dad/spidey sense that tells them something just isn't right, and it usually isn't. So don't get me wrong--I ♥ nurses.
From day one, all we hear from every resident, every attending, is "Be nice to the nurses, they can make or break you. They are very valuable." So we as lowly little useless med students, spend countless hours, and lots of energy trying to please all the nurses around us. We try not to get in the way of them doing their job. We worry if we interrupt their patient duties, or charting, or prep, and we try to follow protocol to the T so we don't make them mad. So much energy goes into this every day. It sounds like an exaggeration but truly, I can't explain it's full effect.
Today's daily gripe....
For those of you who are not aware of what "scrubbing in" is, here's how it works.
1. Secure mask, and goggles and begin scrubbing your fingers and forearms. *Advice from residents...ALWAYS be the last to finish. If the attending is still scrubbing, then you keep scrubbing till your little hands are raw. Attending leaves, resident still scrubbing....guess what?..you are STILL scrubbing.
2. You finally finish, you butt the door to enter the OR, and keep your hands in a "strike zone", careful not to touch anything. You do NOT walk in front of any attending or resident who is getting their sterile gown and gloves put on.
3. You towel off your hands/arms starting at finger tips, moving down to the elbow, grab bottom of towel and switch sides. You drop the towel on the floor (or designated spot) and then the scrub nurse helps you put on your gown. A circulating nurse ties up the back of your gown and fastens the snaps while the scrub nurse helps you put on sterile gloves.
4. The dance: You grab ties in the front of your gown and yank off one side of a cardboard tag which you hand to a circulating nurse as you spin around to grab the other end....ie you have both ends of your gown to tie like a robe without touching anything not sterile like your backside.
5. Done. Wait for attending to tell you where he wants you to stand next to the operating table.
Now you're caught up to speed :) Maybe you should scrub in for me. I'm sure you'd do a much better job and receive a few less eye rolls, "humphs", or "well....she's already messed it up so just tie it".
GrrrrRRRrrr. *evil eye* bite your tongue. (thinks) ....it's ok. it's not your fault she's an unhappy person. Crazy. I'm sorry. I keep whining, but i can't do it at the hospital so you get to listen to it on here. Well, i guess you could stop reading if it bothered you that much. Wow. Great idea, i wish i had a magic button inside my face mask that i could push with my tongue to put people on mute every time they choose to have a power trip kind of day.
my favorite comment today......"*sigh* you can just use the avaguard* next time"
(avaguard*= equivalent to hand sanitizer, slightly stronger, but used to scrub in very quickly for emergency procedures, or not so sterile procedures. It's not nearly as adequate as using the proper scrub soap especially when diving into an open abdomen.)
Translation......"I'm to lazy to hand you a towel to dry off, or to stand here and gown 2 attendings and YOU."
This would be right before the comment......"here's the scissors, you're up, you're gonna have to do something besides stand there and look pretty." ......wow. awww she called me pretty.
NOTE: I DO NOT assume that i'll be cutting anything, in any open abdomen, until told to do so by an attending. Bottom line. (so shut it lady)
I realize they have WAY more experience in the OR than i do. But, come on, I'm working on year TWENTY of my education. My spelling skills may be lacking, but I ain't as dumb as I look. Don't talk at me, teach me. I promise i won't do it wrong again.
I know its going to keep happening and eventually i'll just tune it out. But, for now....i'll just continue to chuck hemostats and retractors at their heads.
In my mind.

*I promise the next post will be a happier, less whiny me :)
7/17/2008
shut it, mary warren!
so...some of you may know that i am currently on tour (the "fat is a feeling, not a shape" tour)
and i'm flying to atlanta tomorrow to do a show there tomorrow night (a place called Vinyl - be there)
well...i had "silver medallion" status on Delta Air Lines but have come to despise that company so much that i only fly them when absolutely necessary...and i have taken all my business to Continetal (whenever possible).
well (again), i FINALLY just made elite status on Continental Air Lines, and i just got upgraded to first class for my flight tomorrow!!!!!
i know i sound like total Texas white trash (i am) who's never been on a plane or whatever, but this will be my first time ever flying first class!!!!
i've finally arrived. i'm like...rose dewitt bukater.
watch me die on the AirTrain on the way to the airport or something.
7/15/2008
Ya wanna know why....
*as third and fourth year students, we're the only ones in the hospital NOT doing an important job, or atleast getting paid to do it. We do a lot of work, simply for the purpose of learning. And we recognize this. We realize that we are often in the way, that things take a little longer with us around, and it takes more effort to teach us than to not have us around at all. we get that. But you don't have to treat us like we are completely a nuisance. We're just trying to take care of our patients, and learn as much medicine as possible, before we are responsible for actual lives in 2 years. We work really hard to adjust to the fast pace of being in the hospital, while attempting to please our residents, get good shelf exam scores, study so we don't look like idiots in front of our attendings, scrub in properly and excessively worry if we are going to be that stupid 3rd year med student that breaks the sterile field and has to re-scrub/gown/glove, etc., we spend half our day attempting to not piss of the nurses, and the other half worrying weather or not we getting on the interns' nerves by following them everywhere. So have a little pity on that cranky doctor next time, because he/she prob suffered through years of everyone around them recognizing them as and treating them, like they are at the bottom of the food chain. I'm not saying you have to take crap from people, because really no one benefits from treating other people like poo. Just cut them a little slack.
Daily frustrations from the algae at the bottom of the food chain [that'd be me]
1. I get to the hospital about 1 hour before my intern so that I can get all my vital signs, and labs off the patients charts and evaluate my patients progress over the past 12 or so hours, and finish my report before the intern gets there. When i get there, I see my patients do physical exams (yes they love that i wake them up at 4am!) and then its around 430-445 and I write down all my patients' medicines, and then look for their vital signs on the charts and their lab results on the computer. HELLO! These are important, and they are supposed to be done throughout the night but how am i supposed to evaluate how patient is doing with out them???? And what gives someone the right to get mad at me for getting there early?? ARRRgghhHH. You don't have to roll your eyes, or snap at me when i POLITELY ask to borrow the chart, or ask for my vitals. So i guess this is how its supposed to play out:
Resident: so you saw Mrs. XYZ this morning how's she doing?
ERin: uh well i saw her, she was talking to me and she was breathing, heart was beating. But other than that I can't tell you her blood pressures overnight, i can't tell you how much pain medicine she used, i cant tell you if she had a fever ever, what her heart rate was, or her respiratory rate, if she's on oxygen, how much urine output she had, what any of her electrolytes were, if she needs to be transfused or not, if her coumadin is being controlled, if her sugar is too high......uh I really cant give you any of that. cause it wasn't done.
See how that could be frustrating??? Ok I'll step off that soap box. Next,...
2. I sit and study while everyone has dispersed to their respective surgeries, mine is not until noon. I study in the doctors office on our floor in the hospital (its where we keep our stuff all day, and write in patients charts, look things up, etc.) When another team comes in to do their rounds, we get booted out on a daily basis and have to find somewhere else to read. I'm ok with this, i'm flexible.
2. I relocate to the nurses station, to look up labs on the computer since its been about 3 hours since they've been drawn and i still dont have the results. A "disgruntled" employee tells me I can't have a drink without a lid on it. Ok. Fine. I go in search of a lid because i dont want to get in trouble. Cant find one, so I ask someone who works on the floor on a regular basis..."excuse me, where can i find a lid?" the response i get...."oh a lid? we dont have any lids up here."....what the crap?! Ok so i head back the computer where i was working, my drink and book have been relocated because...well because it apparently was in someone's way. Ok so clearly I'm in the way again even though there are 5 empty computers around the room.
3. So i get up and walk to the break room where there's no employees and i dont need a lid. I read for awhile, two classmates join bc they too are not sure where to be "out of the way". Then disgruntled employee #1 walks in and loudly states to her colleague "yeah well be rounding in here in about 10 minutes" my good friend responds (in a friendly manner) "is that our cue to leave?! :) " response "well yeah. we need to be in here in 10 min." ok we get the picture. relocate again to sit at the end of the hallway.
4. I'm over this so I head downstairs to check on the status of the surgery going on before mine. I'm in the elevator which stops about 3 floors above the one where I'll get off. I see medical equipment so I hold the door open to let whoever step on to the elevator. A lady walks in and goes "OH! I have a patient. you need to step on out." (um, ok since you asked so nicely)....booted again.
5. You know what? whatever. I ended my day with a 4+hour surgery where we removed an incredibly painful cervical mass the size of a grapefruit, and a uterus from a young woman who will be feeling much better in about a week, and who will leave the hospital knowing her tumor was NOT cancer!..... so nah nah naaa na naahh naahh! :P My day was cooler than theirs anyhow.
Hmmm....revenge of the nerd.
7/10/2008
so here's how it went down today....
3:55am--i leave the house, head downtown on 64, hit as many green lights as possible and flooring it when any of them turn yellow so i dont have to stop on shady streets this early in the morning, in the dark. [like tuesday when a drunkin' homeless man--blue jeans, blondish hair, royal blue t-shirt, late 40's--made an attempt to approach my car for a ride before i stomped on the gas pedal!]
4:10am--finish my slice of cookie cake in my car for breakfast, while waiting in the parking garage for supra.
4:15am--start the day on the floor. look over charts and then wake up my gracious patients to exam them at the butt crack of day. [oh they lOvE me] still dark out.
6:00am--finish my physical exams and my progress notes. horrible.
7:00am--lecture on chemo with attending and residents.
8:00am--pathology conference for interesting abnormal pap smears/biopsies. [we head down to the path lab and all sit at a giant like 16 head microscope as a pathologist explains different cases from the past week.
8:30am--round on patients on the floor. tough day. it has its ups and downs like a roller coaster. From one room where the sweetest little bald headed lady apologized to us because her "teeth were soakin" to the next room where we had to talk to a beautiful spirited lady who realized she needed to talk to her family about end of life planning. Wow. Rough half hour.
9:30am--head to Colposcopy clinic. get to see one, then i have to leave to grab a bite to eat before i head downstairs for surgery.
12:00pm--preop patients, wait for doc to arrive to start procedures. Upon arrival a whirlwind ensues.....running with residents back to OR, tie my facemask as we walk in and doc has pretty much started procedure already....3rdyr resident realizes doc is rip roarin' ready to go, runs out to scrub in...doc ask for med student (that would be me) but neither myself or the 2ndyr resident whom i'm with, have scrubbed in yet! Doc turns to some other random person in the OR and says come here hold this....meanwhile i'm lookin' at my 3rd year like "crap! what do i do, he's almost finished???" her response back with her eyes peeking over a mask say "hell i don't know i guess just go scrub in" so i do. Quick scrub scrub scrub.....i come back in OR ready for gown and glove...got the gloves, no gowns left so i just stand behind the attending and watch. Then I attempt to get out of everyone else's way that's actually doing something important. Uh...now that about three people have either walked in front of me or touched me i've officially broken my sterile field, and doc is about finished with the procedure so i stand there, out of the way. He then request the 2ndyear resident by name--who also didnt have time to scrub in and tells her to scrub in and come participate in the procedure, she leaves to scrub...i run to get her gown and gloves....5 min later we're finished and trying to run to the next OR before doc can make it there.
3:00pm--last procedure of the day. we scrub in on time, doc in much better mood-oddly enough. I get to help out and in 30 min we're finished and headed back up stairs to the floor. I finally get a chance to grab some lunch. We go over our progress notes with our fourth year resident who was VErY helpful, then we split up surgeries, and patients for tomorrow.
4:45--we can leave? really? we are OUTTA here!!!
7/07/2008
FREE FROM ACNE
- first, use anti acne medicine that you usually use. Until then, wait a couple of minutes to let it penetrate to your skin’s pore.
- second, use moistener. With this way, anti acne medicine can infiltrate to the skin’s pore without be bindered by moistener cream. So, each of that can do the job.
life on gyn/onc*
3:30 am: up out of bed, get ready for first day on gyn/onc service (eta: wonderful hubby gets up with me so i don't have to walk out in the dark by myself, well and because we both went to sleep last night at 8:30pm)
4:10 am: leave the house in time to arrive at parking garage by 4:30am
4:30 am: search 8th floor, then 3rd floor labor and delivery for locker room and scrubs
5:00 am: wait patiently on 8south for our intern to arrive. 5 students standing around with absolutely NO idea what to do.
5:30 am: we're told our intern wont be here until we round at 7:15am. So we familiarize ourselves with our new patients, reading charts, doing essentially nothing that is of importance to anyone else. Then we wait around, and we wait, and read, and wait......
...is that the sun coming up?.....and wait.....
9:23am: we go over the patients for today and then start our morning rounds.
10:15 am: rounds over, we're left alone to wait about 20-30 min, then we'll start visiting our patients to check on them and tcb.....surgeries scheduled to start at both 12:30 and another at 1pm.....is anyone else ready for lunch yet????
*dont worry mom, i'm not going to get in trouble we have 30 min of free time. no one trust us enough to give us any responsibilities yet!
eta: 5:00pm : no reason for us to stand around doing nothing, so residents tell us to head home and be back tomorrow and ready to go by 6:15. We get the heck outta there and head home for showers, food, reading to prep for tomorrow, and to bed by 9.
Catch ya on the flip side!
7/05/2008
What is Pericardial Mesothelioma?
Pericardial mesothelioma is the rarest type of the three forms of mesothelioma. It makes up less than 10% of all mesothelioma patients. Approximately 2,000 new cases of mesothelioma are diagnosed each year, but fewer than 200 of them are pericardial. As with the other mesotheliomas, it is caused by exposure to asbestos. This type affects the pericardium, the protective sac that covers the heart and provides lubrication so that it can beat properly. Because it is so rare, there is little specific research on this disease, and it is still not clearly understood how the asbestos fibers become lodged in the pericardium.
Symptoms of pericardial mesothelioma are similar to other forms of mesothelioma, although its rarity has made it difficult for specialists to determine a specific set of common symptoms. Heart palpitations are more common with this form of mesothelioma than with the others. Additionally, patients may experience difficulty breathing, fever, and cough.
Diagnosis of pericardial mesothelioma is problematic, as the nature of its symptoms is relatively non-specific, in that they can appear as a result of several other cardiac conditions. Unfortunately for most patients, by the time symptoms of the disease appear, the cancer has progressed to a stage where conventional treatments are largely ineffective for anything other than providing temporary relief of symptoms.
As a direct consequence of the difficulties in definitively diagnosing pericardial mesothelioma, and the fact that it is usually only minimally symptomatic until its advanced stages, the prognosis for patients is very poor, with a mean survival time of only six months following diagnosis.
Find out more about Pericardial Mesothelioma.
Or learn more about Mesothelioma Cancer.
Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/?expert=James_Howell
7/04/2008
lol. why was this paragraph in my wikipedia article?
that's how ludicrous this wikipedia site is. i only found out about this because someone asked about my support of the CFS cause in an interview. haha
i actually love this paragraph. i wish it were true.
7/03/2008
7/01/2008
Symptoms of Mesothelioma
Mesothelioma is an extremely nasty and permanent cancer that infects the membrane surrounding most internal organs. It is also a very subtle form of cancer providing only a few noticeable symptoms until it becomes extremely advanced. The most common type of mesothelioma is called pleural mesothelioma. It causes shortness of breath and/or chronic coughing that can easily be mixed up with allergies or a common cold. In many cases mesothelioma is discovered by accident when patients are looking into these symptoms. Other symptoms of pleural mesothelioma include:
-Chest Pain
-Chronic coughing that worsens over time
-Shortness of breath
-Coughing up blood
-Fatigue
-Wheezing
-Lung infection
-Swollen lymph nodes
-Loss of appetite and weight loss
75% of all mesothelioma cases are Pleural mesothelioma. Another type is called Peritoneal mesothelioma. Peritoneal mesothelioma affects the lining around the stomach and intestines and can be just as dangerous and deadly. Symptoms of Peritoneal mesothelioma include:
-Pain or swelling in the abdomen
-Weight loss
-Bowel obstruction – blockage in the small / large intestine
-Anemia – reduction in number of red blood cells
-Fever
High risk groups such as asbestos and construction workers must undergo frequent check-ups to monitor any conditions leading to mesothelioma. Because this cancer is so deadly, early diagnosis and treatment can help prolong life, but the mortality rate is usually 100% within five years.
To learn more about mesothelioma and asbestos cancer, please visit our website at http://www.resource4mesothelioma.com
This article may be freely reprinted as long as this resource box is included and all links stay intact.
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- so here's how it went down today....
- FREE FROM ACNE
- life on gyn/onc*
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- lol. why was this paragraph in my wikipedia article?
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